These are my days, this is how they stay...

Lit search for my ass I bet you can't find it

2008-11-18T02:55:15Z

All I have done all semester is read 'scholarly articles'. My whole life consists of lit-searching and printing and highlighting and summarizing eleventy billion pages of experiments. I really didn't need this reminder of why I am not going to be a research psychologist, thanks.

Things I do not care to read about:
Visual Agnosia!!!!!!!!!
Capgra's Syndrome
Effects of social anxiety disorder on the formation of self during the teen years (ok maybe I do care about that)
Development of storytelling schemas

Guess which one I hate the most. Hint: it's Visual Agnosia. Although agnosia is a fun word to say.

7 more days of the semester! (and 7 more papers).

Sales sales everywhere

2008-11-11T05:21:26Z

Godddamn Victoria's Secret and their very expensive (not to be confused with very sexy) shipping and handling charges!

I was all excited to use a 25% off coupon and buy the expensive bra I want but no0o0o once you add on the shipping charges I'd have only saved $5. Fuck that that's not a deal.

HAPPY 21 MINUTES INTO BIRTHDAY JENN!

Tis the season

2008-11-10T08:12:40Z

YESSSSSSS someone on LJ sent me a 30% off coupon for Old Navy and Gap for this weekend, how conveeeeeeeeeeniant that Jenny and I are going Christmas shopping Saturday. With this coupon I believe I will be going Brooke and Jenn shopping.

Between this and Sephora friends&family sale and Erin getting me to sign up on E-bates, I'm effed. But saving lots of money? haha

My taste in music is surely one of my best qualities

2008-11-09T07:00:54Z

I can't wait to rock out to the music of a (potentially homosexual) 17 year old with a bunch of 14 year olds on Tuesday! No seriously hahha nothing better go wrong that day.

Yeah even I respect myself a lot less for listening to this, it's cool.

I can't believe this show's sold out. I'm sure HelloGoodbye can't believe it either. Ohhhhhhhh zing.

His TBS cover is fucking SIQ too, was he even born when this song came out? Oh he was in 4th grade, loves it.

Christmas, again

2008-11-07T03:19:16Z

I can't wait to buy this!!!

Hallmark 2008 lightup gingerbread house decoration, the lights blink!! And it will be like our lightup Halloween house!

Christmas commercials on TV have become more and more frequent, and Oldies 103 is already playing Christmas music 24/7 now hahahah so good!

I have 7 papers and 1 presentation due in the next 4 weeks. Over Thanksgiving 'break' I literally have to write a paper a day. I need to do A LOT of homework this weekend (unlike last weekend). And I need to make myself get all this done so I can enjoy pre-gaming for Christmas. Can't wait to Christmas shopppppppppp.

I <3 to buy you Christmas gifts.

NeverShoutAwesome

2008-11-05T05:59:57Z

Jared is 2 for 2 today with away messages:

Auto response from Dubz Tee Eff: If I lose my right to own a gun, hunt and snowmobile I'm gonna be pissed.

It's classic because its true and sarcastic all at once LOL

Andddd I can't wait to see NeverShoutNever a week from tonight!! (and happy birthday Jenny) Just downloaded the 2 new songs, Im in love. Which reminds me I need to get to Hot Topic and buy the EP giftpack because the 15 year old in me is still alive and well, as far as music goes.

And just as proof that Christofer Drew can really do no wrong, check out his mock hardcore band hahahhahahahha sounds like everything I listened to when I was 15 combined into one big clusterfuck of awesome:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=328629212
Someoneeeeeeee has a new myspace song coming, laughing so hard I have tears in my eyes

VD Venereal Disease

2008-11-04T21:05:55Z

As sick as I am of hearing anything that has to do with the E word and the V word, it's fun to predict...

Who do YOU THINK is going to win?
Not who you want to win, but really, all things considered objectively, who do you think will be the president? And do you think it will be a close race or no?

I'm proud to say that I did not vote, and that is the right choice for ME.
A) I don't believe in voting for the lesser of 2 evils, that's foolish
B) My vote does NOT count, only the big guys' votes do
C) As Jared's away message so nicely states "No matter who wins there's no way our country's going to get a quick fix"

I predict Obama, but I don't really care either way. I just feel like all the buzz is about Obama, everyone I have encountered is for Obama, but then again I live in MA so duh. I'll tell you what got real old today was hearing EVERY single one of my professors doing the whole 'Now I shouldn't let you know my political views BUT HINT HINT HINT IM A HUGE ASS DEMOCRAT OBVIOUSLY HINT HINT!' I myself lean more towards democrat, but STILL it's so childish the little game that everyyyyyyyy teacher and professor I've ever had plays on election day. And then there's Dr. Reichenthal telling us that republicans will be the downfall of civilization and if we ever want to have jobs as mental health clinicians there is no choice for us other than to vote democrat.

I hate politics almost as much as I hate art, just answer my question.

Senioritis

2008-11-02T05:32:44Z

Do you ever do this?
At the beginning of a 'homework sesh' I say "Im gonna get ________, _________, and ______ done before I go to bed/quit for the day. And then other things distract me... talking to Ashlee, brushing the cats, lurking on myspace, writing this livejournal entry... and I break the tasks down into subtasks, which I guess is helpful overall, but really just gives me an excuse not to complete the tasks when I said I would.

Today's goal was to finish that paper. Instead I decided to re-read the article I am writing the paper on and take extensive notes on it, and I will write the ACTUAL paper TOMORROW. See, is this just me doing helpful preparatory steps or is this me procrastinating and justifying not writing the paper TODAY? The world may never knowwwww

Oh well at least daylight savings time allowed me to factor in another hour of procrastinating! See, its only 1230 AM, thats early as far as me and homework goes!

Tomorrow is Andrew's family birthday partyyyyy.

The cat in the heat

2008-11-01T05:55:16Z

A million more tomorrow (which BTW is the first day of the Christmas season!)

Follow your dreams to unemployment, thanks Mr. Patrick

2008-10-28T20:08:36Z

Yup, if I could go back and do it all again, would have been a business major. That's a big affirmative.
But no, I had to 'follow my dreams' and pick an interesting career instead of a practical one.
Don't follow your dreams if they include a bachelor's in science/liberal arts degree.
So funny, the psych department invited me today to be a 'mentor' to freshman psych majors mapping out their plan of study towards being a clinician. Here's a map for all freshman psych majors:

And yes, all this despite the big/good news I have that I still don't feel like posting about yet.

AWFUL

2008-10-28T06:02:38Z

The whole Jennifer Hudson situation makes me REALLY upset.
I feel like it's one of the worst things I've ever heard for some reason,
because like, they took out her whole family, that's incomprehensible to me.
Even in the spousal abuse trainings I just finished, the thing that bothered me the most was the situations where someone has a problem with you, so they threaten/take it out on your family. That's 10 times worse than them threatening you. I'm sure 95% of people feel the same way I do: do what you want to me but don't TOUCH my loved ones. That's so much worse.
Losing your mother is probably the worst thing most people will experience in their life, and she has to deal with it coupled with 2 other deaths all at the same time and all from unnatural unjust causes?
It's awful for her, awful for the rest of the family who must feel SO unsafe and threatened, awful for the victims because what the HELL did a 9 year old kid do to deserve that? If someone killed me because they didn't like my aunt, that's fucked.
Did she even DO anything to the murderer? WTF is this person thinking, revenge or attention?
Fuck him either way, life sentence and tortured in jail for killing a child, please and thank you.

Saw Day!

2008-10-25T03:34:51Z

Saw V has the best ending I've ever seen since Tobin Bell rips his face off and says 'Game Over' in Saw I!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so pleased and can't WAIT for next October!!!!!!!!

Anyone (every movie critic) who hates Saw movies seriously is too fucking retarded to appreciate them. GENIUS movies, no other franchise has connected things this intricately, ever. Everything is pre planned and methodical and done knowing full well what it's going to implicate 3 movies down the line.

xbrookecorex @ 2008-10-21T12:24:00

2008-10-21T16:28:57Z

Past 24 hours have been paricularly horrible.
I would rather be anywhere than school right now.
I feel a nervous breakdown coming on.
This fucking project in psych of intelligence is going to take up so much goddamn time that I don't have.
Who the fuck seriously assigns group projects to seniors in college who all live in different towns and have different school/work/internship schedules and then also has the project involve extensive FILMING. Are you serious?? Is this 6th grade??
Kill me.

Also where the fuck was my mother today with all my stuff? Now I have no phone, no planner (which prevents me from doing like 12 different things), no homework to turn in later in class. This is a longggg story not even worth getting into.

H A Double L O

2008-10-20T04:52:01Z

I have a week and a half to get myself out of the stressed mood and into the halloween mood... Plan to do this mainly through movie watching, tell me your favorite Halloween movies.

My list so far is:
HOCUS POCUS
Children of the Corn
All Rob Zombie movies (David, call me)

Don't recommend anything Tim Burton, that's queer.

Fuck

2008-10-16T07:29:18Z

Oh my god I honestly had NO idea what time it was, havent looked at the clock all night, been studying...
It's 3:45 and I have to be up at 6.
This was an accidental almost-all nighter. Finishing up studying and taking a 2 hour nap I guess.
I hope I'm on one of those adrenaline rushes tomorrow.
CREPES TOMORROW. My mouth is watering at the thought of nutella.

The (Captain) Crunch Is On

2008-10-14T05:10:09Z

This week is key.
This entry is for my own sanity, I like seeing things written out.

Before I sleep tonight:
~~-1 page article comparison for lab~~
~~-READ A GRE CHAPTER OR 2, NOT A TRUE CRIME BOOK~~

Tuesday:
~~-Sleep in, I am sick, so sleep is essential, no matter how many things I need to be doing~~
-Somehow pull together a writeup for lab from those 2 articles that may as well be written in hieroglyphics
-Find 2 more preliminary examples for lab (wiki wiki wahhhhh)
~~-Study for neurology midterm, like crazy~~
-TRY and work on GRE book/studying, if time <---didnt do this
-Early to bed so I can be early to rise? (Tape SVU) <---- didnt do this either, watched SVU

Wednesday:
-Study for neurology midterm
-Lab 1-3
-Work at TLP 3-8 (bring study notes here)
-CRAM FOR NEUROLOGY MIDTERM ALL NIGHT

Thursday:
-Neurology Midterm
-Class 9-12
-Probably need a nap after the all-nighter (1-3)
-Finish reading GRE book
-Take a GRE practice test (2.5 hrs)
-Well deserved date night, Mac and Crepes (7-9) (will watch The Office online over the weekend)
-Also Front-Line the Chief

Friday:
-STUDY ALLLLLLLLLL GRE NOTES ALLLLLLLLL DAY
-Take 3rd practice test (2.5 hrs)
-Review all questions I got wrong on practice tests
-DO NOT go out
-DO NOT pull an all nighter

Saturday:
-GREs 9-1
-Smoke a whole bunch of crack

Hmmmmmm

2008-10-13T05:05:26Z

Today when I was getting dressed I noticed

A) A VIBRANT red splotch on my elbow. It's not itchy, it doesn't hurt, and it has no central bump like a bugbite or an ingrown hair or something. The skins not raised, its just BRIGHT red.

B) A small blistery thing on the shoulder of the same arm that seriously looks like I've been BRANDED. There's a chunk of skin missing, in a weird lil shape, and then the skins like peeling back a bit around it.

What the hell is wrong with me?

SIQ!

2008-10-09T03:51:54Z

Nevermind, NEVERMIND! I found my school's notorious EASY A course, MEDITATION, only they changed the name of the course so I wouldn't be able to find it, 'Contemplation and Compassion'.

HELLO 8 AM MEDITATION (students must purchase a meditation pillow for this course)

What is Febtober

2008-10-08T03:00:43Z

Got bored, did this to my planner:

What else can I do with this adorable ribbon besides make a bracelet, put it in my hair, or try and wrestle it onto the cats' necks?

This says a lot about who I am

2008-10-07T21:51:45Z

S0o0o making my schedule for my final semester of college.
It's such a science, there are so many different strategies to approach this with.
The overall trend here is that my school SUCKS as far as offering classes go. We are poor poor poor and understaffed. AKA they have no one to teach Adolescent Psych, Psych Testing, Sensation and Perception or Criminal Psych. So I am having a Psych-free final semester because I have taken all the classes the departments offers.

Soo0o0 since I have to select 3 classes (my internship counts as the 4th) that are in no way related to anything I'm doing in life, how do I approach this?

I know the majority of people would say to take other areas that I think might interest me, or things I've never tried before. Well unfortunately Senioritis (which I prefer to call 'fuck you Im graduating') has kicked in as far as classes go, and my energy is now totally focused on finding a clinical job post-grad, acing GREs, and visiting/interviewing PsyD programs. If the classes I'm taking aren't Psych ones, I don't care about their content. What I care about is my GPA, thus I am seeking out EASY-As, and classes that only meet on Tuesdays and Thursdays. My desire to sleep late, spend as little time as possible on campus, and do minimal amounts of non-psych related busy-work all outweigh my desire to 'explore something new'. Does my logic make sense? I know it makes me sound slacktastic, but I have (some) valid reasoning behind it.

So first step was narrowing it down to general subjects I can STAND, those being English, Sociology, Religion, Education, and Women's Studies.

Then we face issues like this: as much as taking Alternative Criminal Justice with a professor who is described as 'interesting, passionate, easy, and hilarious' sounds great, is it worth having to come to campus for a measly hour on Mondays and Wednesdays when I otherwise wouldn't have to?

It's either do that and suck it up and have class 4 days a week, or I dive into the unknown, taking Social Work with a new professor, at the dreaded 8AM on Tues/Thurs, but allowing me to have the coveted '2 day a week' schedule.

Picking that last class is going to throw me for a loop, so far I've got:

Tuesday+Thursday:
11-1215 Judao-Christian Relationships
1230-145 Sex and Gender Studies (which is apparently different from Gender and Society which I already took?)
2-315 Internship Meetings

What do I doooooooo? Im leaning towards take Social Work, go for the first week to see if I like the professor/class, and if I don't, switch into Alternative Criminal Justice. Thoughts?

PS I want to be back at Knowledge Beginnings, ASAP.

Tweet Tweet

2008-10-06T04:12:25Z

Give me your twitter names!
One more thing to be addicted to.

Time For Teletubbies

2008-10-04T01:58:26Z

I just rescheduled my general GREs, pushed them up to the spring.
Taking them 2 weeks from today would have been the dumbest idea in the world.
I'm spending all my time focusing on cramming for the Psych GREs, and I KNOW I won't open the General book at all.
The only reason I scheduled them both for October was because I though I had grad school applications due December 1st, but now that I'm not going to school next year, I can take them whenever.
So I'm taking the Psych ones in 2 weeks because I've been studying for them, and because I'm IN school so the stuff is somewhat 'fresh' in my memory.
Then I'm taking the general ones in March, so I will have time to study for them.
And if I'm not satisfied with my scores on these Psych ones, I'll retake those in April.
AKA no testing going on next fall, when I AM applying to grad schools.
Did I even tell you LJ, I'm not going to school next year because I found out you HAVE to take 1-2 years off to work in a clinic before you can apply to a Phd program? Yeah. And Im NOT wasting the time/money/energy on the useless transitional period of getting a masters, its just not even worth it in psych to me. Plus it will tempt me way to badly to quit there and just be a guidance counselor.

Yeah so that's where I am. And I just started working as a youth counselor at the Teen Living Program for teen moms with backgrounds of abuse/rape/substance abuse/depression. More on that later.

Topsfield Furrrrr tomorrow!

xbrookecorex @ 2008-09-29T03:17:00

2008-09-29T07:17:25Z

AND Shammy ate today for the first time in 3 weeks <3
He is also wearing a sweater.

Whatcha gonna do about Harry Potter's Hardcore?

2008-09-28T20:22:10Z

NFG tonight in Providence!
This is a 10 year celebration for me, I will never like another band as long as I've liked NFG.
I also cannot wait to sing about never forgetting my seatbelt.

Thurzty Thurzday

2008-09-25T20:18:54Z

Today was a weirddd day at school.
I slept for 3 hours last night and had Neurology at 8AM and what happened? I enoyed it. Most of the rest of the semester is about what exactly each type of street drug does in your brain and the neurotransmitters and mechanisms behind getting addicted to each one, and I like knowing things like that. And surprisingly, I don't like knowing it just so I can be more anti-drug. It actually made me FEEL BAD FOR people who become addicted. I don't feel bad for the blatantly stupid choice they knew they were making the first time they did it, that's their own damn fault, but I feel bad for them once the addiction controls their life because there's SO little you can do about it and your brain and body are fucked pretty much past the point of return. That sucks, to make a mistake that you can't take back like that. (You shouldn't have done it in the first place) but yeah the body is unforgiving and I'm kind of sorry. Believe it or not, this is me being more tolerant than usual.

Cute motherly professor then jumped around the room in an imitation of a coke addict screaming 'shit fuck fucking fuck shit' and saying thats what it's like when you need a hit. She also stroked herself and said 'dopemine dopamine, ohhhhhhh dopamine'. I felt 5 years old when I laughed at both of these things hahah

Then I took a soc exam where the one question was 'Describe why childhood obesity is society's problem and not the parents'/child's'. That was a bit of a stretch to do, oh sociology.

Then in Psych of Intelligence I somehow ended up defining 'foreplay'. It was in no way related to the class content or anything, he was trying to make some analogy and goes 'what's foreplay? stop being pussies, somebody give me a definition of foreplay.' My profound defintion was 'gearing up for the real deal'. I don't think I've ever made a room of 30 people laugh before lol

Let me remind you that I go to a Catholic private university.

Here's some survey.

Not sure what happened to number 1, but proceed....

02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?
Legalizing it would somehow make it NOT the most deadly drug, ok NO.

[03] Abortion: for or against it?
For

[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
No, people would freak the fuck out but what difference would gender make besides the difference people want to make out of it?

[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?
Yes

[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Not sure, it would increase AND decrease the number of people doing it, which would cancel each other out, so I guess it can stay the same as it is now.

[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?
It's fine just use your goddamn brain

[08] Do you believe in God?
No

[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
Yeah

[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
Yes, live the way everyone else here lives or GTFO

[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Not unless her parents plan on raising it, and not unless they're the Cleavers

[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
Yes, people wouldn't do it to show off and be cool and a lottttttttt of addictions would be stopped right there

[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Yes, the end.

[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
No, if I'm miserable why the hell would you torture me by making me live

[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?
I was spanked and I'm fine. I realize it CAN escalate to abuse obviously, but SPANKING it itself is fine.

[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
YES I will do it right now, $ plz. It's not the country, it's a piece of cloth, honestly that means nothing to me.

[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
Neither. Hate me, but there's no way I'm voting. I have nothing to vote for, I don't really favor one person over the other, and no, MY vote does NOT count at all.

[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
They probably will but that's fine